I know I'm cold-hearted. I know I'm an asshole. I know people hate that kind of thing. And I also know it's why I am single. Big deal. Why people keep asking the same goddamn motherfucking question is beyond me. "WHY DON'T YOU HAVE A GIRLFRIEND!?"
Uh, hello? You're talking to someone who continually fights for everything. The way I live is not something people can nor will understand. People just don't get that. I'd rather fight it out than fall in love nowadays. Love leads me nowhere and frankly, it will diminish my efficiency. I hate that. Besides. To anyone who might even like me, I'm only someone to use anyway, so fuck the shallow lying sacks of shit. They can go to hell.
Look. Never ask that question again. Ever. I fight to enforce my beliefs. I am a leader. I go on my own, never to endanger those under me should it be possible. I walk my roads alone. I need not assistance from others, and should I need it I will not request it. I can conquer my own troubles. I am not weak. I sacrifice my own well-being to help others, I let them vent their troubles on me. It matters not what I think and therefore it should not matter at all whether or not I have a girlfriend. Leave me be. I am who I am, and many cannot accept that. I have grown up in a neighborhood who has never accepted my true being. And they never will. I like it better this way. Less distractions. Less chances of myself being thrown from my goals. Although I seem heartless, I do care. People do not understand that a blade can be used to protect, not to kill. I suppose my nature is something that simply cannot be comprehended and loved. Not that it matters, because I could care less.
So to all of you asking that question, do not do it ever again. I don't need to be reminded of my mistakes. And even though it hurts at times, I would rather remain single until someone loves and cares for me for who I am. Not because of what I do. Not because of what I can do, and neither because of my kindness at times. I don't want someone who cannot respect my nature. If they can heal the pain I've suffered throughout the years, that'd be fine. If they can get rid of the damage done to my soul, then fine. If they can mend the broken heart that has yet to be revived, then fine. If they can give me the reason I seek, then fine. Otherwise, my existence stays as is. Fighting eternally for justice.